sakinahhhh !

2009-11-05T17:04:00.000-08:00

okay..i've change to tumblr.
saquenah-girl.tumblr.com
relink me folks.

2009-10-15T04:05:00.000-07:00

hello!
life really sucks!
yesterday at arnd 12.07 - 12.17 someone lunatic messaged me.
3 sms-es in a time
like WTH, i was sleeping!
it goes like this:

12.07 am - u...i'm really sowie so much...didn't msg or call u..recently...i'm really sori..
12.15 am - i think...i need to be truthful...i can't just let u hanging like diz..u.i realy2 sorie.
12.17 am - u...i think its better u forget mie...i'm rili2 sowie

haish.
ape mawu bwaat.
anw bukan nyer aqu suke die.
cume naq kenalan jerr paaah.
could somebody tell me WHY guys behave in such a way?..
anw. kat skewl tady terok kemamat.
yas, mai, naia ngan neesa kene CAUGHT!
YA TUHAN!
kan aqu dhr ckp jgn bwaat korg degil.
now dhr get into BIG trouble.
maths p1 dhr dpt KOSONG!

ouh ouh.
smlm ge bowling npk hakim and gang taw.
wow. like dorg hot lah.
dhr 2 minggu taq npk sumer.
i miss them lah kan.
makin hot jugak
well, i want to dye rambot lagy lah.
oit! colour taq nampak dok.
i want red.
okay paah. holidays coming.
okay lah. mawu check my tag.
update soon kay.
buaybuay loves.

2009-10-12T20:02:00.001-07:00

OKAY THATS IT!!
BT rayeer outing lah..
so it damn fun rayer wif them.
sorry BT nari aqu taq lay ge rayer umah laki so, u guys go ahead.
anw, haha, im in love wif DAAUUS....
he's like understanding, loving, and i started to feel something for hym..
GOSH, does this mean i forget someone,..aqim lerr...

alamak..
my promises dhr gone.
lagy pun, aqu buang mase jer tunggu that ass.
oppss..sorry..
hahaa. memang betul pun..
die sindeh aqu buleh aqu sindeh taq buleh.
maner FAIR!!
haish anw dhr 2 weeks taq jumpe die.
afiq kate smlm die adr tapy mane adr aqu kat sekolah.
smlm lepas exam zooop..ge makan cavana ngn THE GYLERS.
SUMPAH KEKEK KAT SITUH
smpi tersedak namin bwaat saquen.
KURANG AJR..
selalu nah kacau saquen.

ouh ouh..
2mrw saquen taq skewl. tapy namin skewl.
im fetching her 2mrw then go her house.
maklum lah naq ge bowling..
if i could make it lah.
but 100% pergy!!

so thats it lah. saquen mawu siaap..
naq ge changi..
adr lah..
okay..
lots of love saquen

2009-09-25T23:11:00.000-07:00

Firstly i would like to wish YASMIN BTE ALI ZORLU
a HAPPY BURFDAY!!
HAHA. I almost forget til i flip thru mu pupil diary.
okay. Hm. to all SELAMAT AHRI RAYE!!
Saquen mawu mitaq maaf pat sumer kalaw tersinggung hati or what lah.
biase uhq i like to joke about. haha. belum matured lah.

im really looking forward to the inline skating on monday. maybe it will change to tuesday.
well. im currently full. haha. tady kan kan.. pat madrasa afiq mintaqq naia kawin on the spot.
omg!!

haha. then me and naia disturb my ex. hakim as per usual. haha.
bukan maen mara lagy bile kiter taq ckp kite ni sape.
HUAK!
KKAY. mampos aqu nanti kalaw die bace.
well yesterday naz and haha make a fool of me.
i was at the spec shop and ordered my lens lah and they wondered of dunno where.
i tot they were at the ice kacang shop lah so i was halfway and called haha.
then they were at the ABC shop beside the spec shop.
i was paisey lah. so turn back and saw hafeez. lol.
HOT HOT HOT ! !
AND AND i was still talking otp wif haha and clash wif RUHAIDI and he said
'eh eh suare pelan sikit eh'
then aqu bwaat bodow jer.

kaylah. malas mawu bobual panjang.
later arnd 4 going out.
tenok atok kesayangan pat hospital.
ahhaa...
dapat minum starbucks agy tu!
weee...
so update next time kay. buay buay.

2009-09-15T01:13:00.000-07:00

hello. updates again. hahaa. tested my onsugar. and hm sort of great lah.
View me @ saquenah.onsugar.com
wnat to be linked just tag/comment.
well it's like blog but u exploring more.
haish. nothing to say. okaylah. busy busy busy. want to update my ONSUGAR.

2009-09-09T22:52:00.000-07:00

woke up late today. wohoo. updates updates updates.
My brother not in so buleh maen comp!![gelek gelek].
currently im bored la. nonsense things happening around me. haish.
seems like other peeps blog gerek than mine.
hm. okay lets talk about my beloved friends. i mean yang 'ITU'
heh. paham paham jer. Yang tatawu lay bwaat tawu tawu jer.
i dreamt that he ask me for patch depan orang ramai. hey. i know where i stand la kan.
hm. then it goes on and on until i was so like gonna look at him when my mamee wakes me up.
urghh. when will my dream gonna end if she didnt wake me up!!
okay. not gonna fuss abt that.
i hate the hols. with tons of homework to be done and whatever nots.
anyway i just change my profile. haha. like i copy paste from someone. sorry eiiqah. it's yours.
im sure u dont mind would you.
okay peeps. i update soon. dont forget to tag me.
BUAYBUAYS

2009-09-01T21:58:00.000-07:00

hello. updates updates updates. im bored to death in school but this selenger teacher let the class use umpc. wohoo!! like water. currently im sad. coz my atok is in the emrgency room at ttsh. OPERATION. i hate the word most. i cant keep thinkinhg if he die. opps!! not saying the word. i really love hym. i tried not to be so emotional at school but cant resist. my eyes swollen coz i cried the whole night. i dunno what is it like to lose someone you love most. like aqim. i cant concentrate on anything at all. im clueless waiting for messages and call and all. what if the op is not a success.?? will i lose hym??? yes!!! im so scared. i just dunno how i fell. anyway. to those peeps whoo like to change their url again and again...i suggest not. coz to me it wasting my time lah..furthermore so troublesome to change it for repeated times. to atok, i love you very much..thank you for all you advices and courages that you put in. ATOK KUAT KAN SEMANGAT!!! JANGAN KASI ORANG DI KELILING MU KEHILANGAN ORANG YANG ,MEREKA AMAT SAYANGI!! kakak doa kan atok banyak banyak. urghh!!! i think i might not get the fact that im losing someone. i had never lost someone except for pak lang. i miss pak lang. if only i could change the world...then everything will be perfect...AND from here i end my post for the day.

2009-08-10T20:54:00.000-07:00

helloh welloh to all bellows!!!

sorry long time no update.

kinda 'busy' ??

well i sort of busy playing my guitar.

it's my life babe.

haish im so lonely to the core.

cant stand the sight of my ENEMY!!

on sunday went to my mum besties wedding

wow the colour really interesting.

AND next day went to suhaillah's couz kenduri.

lol and the food is damn spicy.

and im sort of allergic to 'the stuffs that hot'!!!

well i think overall it's been a way boring day..

currently im in school bloging..DUH

BATMAN IS BACK(returns)!!

cant stand her nagging.

and my friend beside me is singing a lame song

that everybody knows

well not all.

glad to be back at school coz im bored to death.

there's nothing to talk much here.

my in reality there's WAY lot to speak about.

i miss Eiiqah

i miss ross.

i miss syanad.

i miss rau.

i miss all of you especially aQim.

uhm. i wonder whats he's doing now.

i really wanna let hym know that i love hym.

but i dont expect anything in return.

let it be a secret that i've been keeping for a long time,

since the day i ran away.

i truly feel indepted to hym.

and i willing to sacrifice for the one i love most.

if he tend to read this,..

im glad coz at least he knows.

deep in my heart there's always memories of me and hym.

2009-07-19T01:34:00.000-07:00

recently i had a bad time.

coz i knew that nazmeen is going away.

lol.. i cried like hell

i tot it was dooms day or what so ever

i juz cant imagine my life without her.

totally lonely

okay..

last friday i went to her house..

she just got better..

when apiz got back home i was shy tak tentu pasal

and nazmeen, mai, yas,ainiie saaid aink the whole visit

i wanted to make them shut their mouth..

but hell no..

they continued

pape je la

but i kinda like it..

SHHHHH!!!!!!!!!

YESTERDAY, SATURDAY,

MADRASA and this mamat who wears black kept looking at me..

eww..but he's cute

and we were going thru exam paper when i didnt listen fully ask ask him

and he just stared at me and turn back to give me the answer

gosh it's been months sia i've been watching him

haish. i jus wanna be single

not attached.

this is the end la

post another time

2009-07-14T00:41:00.000-07:00

HELLO HELLO HELLO
yeay, get to post..damn happy today
recently just have a fight with nazmeen..
but now okay la..coz just baek baek ngan dier..

everythings fine at school..bored as usual.. as u know
hahhaaa...there is interesting stories but uhm..not prepared to share it...
CONFIDENTIAL BABEYY...

gotta finish up marks chen projects, ainiie, mairah and me..
gosh lots of stuffs to do..
feel like leaving the world la sial...

now i have too repay my puase depts*bile mase aqu hutang eh??*
yg da lame ditangguh kan coz im damn lazy..
btw this is my first time repaying..
so there may be a problem..
hais..
type punye type i forgot abt my project that has to be done..
okayies....buaybuay
*wave*

FRUSTRATED OVER YOU !

2009-07-05T20:34:00.000-07:00

CANT LET OUT MY FEELINGS FOR YOU..
THIS IS ALL I COULD SAY,
FROM ME TO YOU

Love is...

Love is a feeling that is so sweet
Love is a feeling that you cannot beat
Love is a feeling that you feel deep

Love is...
Love is a challenge you have to face
Love is an emotion you must embrace
Love is a topic that stays on your case

Love is...
Love is an issue that cannot be ignored
Love is around when things get bored
Love is like a bird ready to soar

Love is...

Love is around when times get bad
Love is there when you get sad
Love is really all you ever had

Love is...

Love is me and love is you
Love is made not by one but by two
Love is the feeling felt by you

Love is...

I Love You with All I Am

I love you with all I am
And all I'll ever be.
You are my moon, my sun and stars,
My earth, my sky, my sea.
My love for you goes down and down
So deep it must remain when I
Have drawn my last faint breath.

Holding you for months and years
Will make Time disappear,
Will make your lips my lips, your face
My face, your tear my tear;

Will make us one strange personage
All intertwined in bliss,
Not man or woman, live or dead--
Just nothing--but a kiss!

2009-07-05T19:05:00.000-07:00

HELLOH!!
im updating again..currently bored..
waiting for my mum to get home..
so that i could go buy NEW jeans..
almost ALL my clothes are branded coz heheh peeps blanje mah..
okay..stories, hmm not too sure..
i didnt dream for a long time and thats bad mann...
i sleep like a PIGGY..

my sister woke up but i didnt heard her crying...
i was half awake and my sister was gone...
maybe she went for breeze...

ouhh yaah...
last friday if im not wrong,
it was my recess time and aqim was having his malay claass at the first level..
when i was abt to walk down the staircase,
i heard shouting and stuffs..
i looked and it was hym and gang..
i hide..but im not sure if he was gone or not.
so i decide to go down and saw peacock (a girlfriend of mine, nickname laa../munirah)
she ask me if i stayed back and i said not sure..

reached ground floor; aqim was standing right beside me when i was talking to peacock..
i was damn afraid and couldnt hear wad she say...
hais..he's not so hensom when it comes to cutting hair..
thats that im not talking further..
makes my heart boil,
makes me feel the worse of the worse.

ive nothing else to say..
blogging is my passion..
my friendster, tagged, imeem,
i didnt even bother to sign in...
such a waste of time..
need to upload this la that la..
so the mafan...

okayy peeps wait for my next updates okayy...
(pictures up there hahha juz for fun..dont know what else to do..)

2009-06-26T00:50:00.000-07:00

heyy....
cant wait for school reopen seyy..i miss everyone...
ive just updated bitches tersiow blog...
hahahaa
1st updated okayy...

currently i'm bored..
school reopen narq ge shopping ngn nazmeen...
maybe.. after school...
yeay im now on9..
chatting wif one crazy crap that idk...
saying hello..

stop talking bout himm...
okayy..

i miss the person who tag me...
and yeah to hym..
i didnt mean wad i say in my blog..
its me which at fault....
maybe other gals out there are meant to be ur gf..
im not the one for u...
but i do appreciate it alot wad u done for me..

hhaahhhaa
NEWS NEWS!!
fazli looking for a guitarist drummer and vocalist..
guess wad on msn siaa...
tarok uhh pat newspaper or wad..
nasib laa ader kawan cam ni...

and meeting ainnie at her house 2mrw..b4 guitar starts...
k buaybuay i'll update soon...
imyGUYS! muackss...

2009-06-24T20:06:00.000-07:00

URGG...i look so nerd...
yeahh...this is my latest pic of me...
lol...hahaaa
i do miss my fringe..

hais yesterday dreamt agaiin..
im damn shy wanna talk abt it..
like peeps will say..
noting else to talk abot other then ur #%^#$ dreams or wad..

anyway i will be sharing..coz it's no use keeping it inside of me...i wanna my besties and bitches to know too...

we were on an excursion wif sec2 & 4
and me, naia,aqim and all were there..
the characters are common but dunno laa why..
me and naia were sitting at the back row and aqim and gang just in front of us..
they were talking abt sumting..im not too sure..
when we reached our 'destination', we were supposed to squeeze so that we'll be able to hear..

i looked ard and saw aqim juzz behing me...*nervous*
there were nobody sitting bside me except naia...
i was listening and i saw something beside me..i turned and duhh..aqim!
he juz keept smiling ad smiling at me..
i was so scared when he touched me..feels like goosebumps...
hahaa*at last he touched me but im my dreamss*
then adventure began and so on..
ummm
one thing i remember is that he walk beside me the whole excursion..i ignored..

on the way back to sch, he kept turning fornt n back...he was so irritating...
he wanna crack jokes wif me.. but i covered my face wif my bag..
still i laughed..
thre were nobody sittingat the back row except 4 me n naia..
suddenly he appeared bside me..
GOOOSSHHH...

i asked hym y is he changing seats he said for fun..
the whole period of time he was talking to me non-stop..
though i'm not bored coz it's quite interesting...

reached sch;
he wanted to give me treat at mac..so y not i go wif hym,
we chatted until i didnt know wad time is it..
he send me back home..and i said buaybuay to hym after i reached my front door..
the end!!!

i wanna share sumting wif u guys..sumting i read in an article in the newpapers yesterday..uite romantik though...
it's so call like a poet..
bolay cair babe..

it sounds like this..

''it may take a minute to like someone,
an hour to have a crush on someone,
a day to love someone,
but it'll take a lifetime to forget someone.''

2009-06-19T00:07:00.000-07:00

AHHAHHHHHHHHHHAAAAHHHHH
i' super tired..guess wad me and nazmeen chat on9 with gangster(rineetha)
we argued..it was so funny..we kept throwing #@$^$# words at her..
hahaa...we chatted until she was so fed up wiith us, i think, that she off9 MSN...
we're juz playing mann...dun take it too hard yo..

weeee...feels like no one at home..tapi ader uhh..
get to on9 all morning..when my 2 cheecky brothers aren't around
they're damn irritating..in and out of the house.
they treat it like a hotel or wad??

for me, life's good..but since someone tag me...i kinda restless...
figuring out wad he's trying to say...or well be it...

yaa..i've forgotten..last night, i dreamt..
not about aqim but about the world..
if i could remember it goes like this..

i was in an unknown area where everyone i knw were there..
i was REACHING 15 than...
everyone hurried home..
i wonder y...in juz a few seconds the place was emptied..
and i saw heads peeping out of the window...
1 uncle said..
'hey girl, go back home laa..it's dooms day..
you knw kiamat..
i was shivering with cold man..
i rushed back home...
i hugged my family members quickly..
then i forgotten sumting..
AQIM..
i called him for a few times but he didnt answer...
through the darkness, storm..
i went out to look for him with one of my friend-cant remember who
and i saw him..hahaahhhaaa
he was wearing army thingy with big guns...
together with other army and their commander laa...
i went up to him and hugged him tightly in my arms..
i said to him 'meet you in heaven'
when he was juz about to say something to me...
sometihing happen..

MY MUM WOKE ME UPP!!!
the story has yet to be ended..aiyoyoyoo..
and i told her about my dream..she said that
'sumer tuu ditentu kan allah'
yeahh..she was right..
but waait could this be true...
when i reach 15 it will be doom's day..
i hope so not..

that's all for the updates..i'm quite sleepy..
hahaa.watch telly first then sleep..

2009-06-17T19:20:00.000-07:00

ok i'm not gonna continue the story...
And it's my personal life..
haiyooyo..

i'm not enjoying my hols coz i cant go out at all...
guess what all i do is sleep eat and watch telly..
u may wonder i may get fat but no..
still the same
no matter how much i eat i cant get any fatter..
so i continue my hobby that is eating junk food..

recently my dad ask me to wear tudung..and i was like WHAT!
i didnt wear it coz u knw lay i'm one of a kind..
my attitude is like @$*#%$
hey dun laugh..
but he didnt say a word abt it anymore..

2 days b4 matrep msg me thru my hp and the conversational starts like wat cha doing
and so on and so forth..
then i accidently said that guys are timer, perverts, and want things that are beyond girls control..
he started to say that all my ex'es break up with me coz of mu attitude like ****
and i was like wtf siol..maybe die terase kot...
and i didnt say he was the kind..
he started to maki2 and you know la hine..
KURANG AJAR NYE BADAK!!

but overall he's still my friend right so i forgive him...

ouh ya..
aQim taq me..
hey you know this is what you call life sometimes you lose and sometimes you win..
i post this bcoz i felt like $#%^%@# okay..
furthermore you are too good to me and i think that i dun deserve to have a bgr...
and i always ended up like what i am know..
diri sendiri pun tarq terurus..apatah lagi nak jage org laen..

to my bitches..i wanna you decide for me something.
i want to reborn my hair but im clueless about the cutting thingy..
so tag me asap..

i'll update soon

2009-06-03T00:13:00.000-07:00

now im gonna continue my story..

i cried all the way home in the bus..nazmeen and naia tried to comfort me..

i realised that he was everything to me..i gave him my heart. so that he could share all my worries and sorrows with me..aiyoyo i also felt useless.

i was scared to face reality..u nvr knw what might crop up at the moment..haha the interesting part happens..i gotten my new hp and a new number..and i tried to call..and he missed call me..i used naia hp and said that im me la..he said i was lying..

continue later..bz la now..

2009-05-27T20:12:00.000-07:00

hey, im bored..sorry la long time no updates..life been meaningless now..

guess what yesterday i've flashbacks again..

this time it's about aqim la deyy..

the story will start at the next paragraph..pls seat back relax and prepare tissue IF u feel sad.

it all happens long-long ago when i was wif him..it's abt 2 weeks we spent together b4 the november hols started..

we enjoyed each other company and we go out often but after school laa..

can't tell u what we do cause it's all a secret between a couple..and please dun think abt the bad thing..

holiday comes and i feel bad cause i didn't get to see my beloved..

i cried almost everyday hoping i could see him again..

i called him but it's just a miss call...

he called me back.. but i purposely didn't answer..

i was scared coz i didn't wanna cry in front of him..

holiday ended..i get to see him the 1st day of school..

i was damn happy..

and on the same day i got a present for him.. i was eagerly waiting and he came with fazli..dun know what they talked abt but they walked off just like that..i was dissapointed though..

to be continued..

2009-04-17T05:32:00.000-07:00

i feel very miserable coz aqim rejected me...how i wish he knew that i truly love hym..i juz cant face him..muke aku makin selenger thanks to the school!!! i hate it...aku da tk tau ape nak ckp...no1 msges me..im bored..school's been frustrated for me..guitar classes,Batam trip and BLABLA..

btw ge batam for wad siall...meet prostitute mintak autograph?gosh tk kn pat sing tkde satu
haha..lol..im tired...everyday after i get back from sch mesti tido...PENAT PERR!!

2009-04-01T00:06:00.000-07:00

hey time for me to update againn....school's been quite bored..tons of homework to do...AND today my life's miserable...coz aqim msg me today and said tat i told everyone tat i k***ed him...derr...he's like WTF!!! he juz cant blame me rite?? and sulastry mepek ahh...it must be her telling others about tat thingy-thing...i tot she's my friend..'fuck off' i will say the next time i c her..and no1 should stop me

and for bdk2s annur kiter meet up ah..pat ane2 pun jadi...kalau korg bolay...u can contact me at my new number...hmm not here la..;shanad kau mintak naia aku nyer number beh pass to all k..i will reply asap!

2009-03-24T23:54:00.000-07:00

i feel like im in a nightmare...havving stupid dream that i ever had...yeah..im now okay wif aqim..like normal..he wants to meet me.. im juz scared coz im shy towards him a lil...anywayy we fought over the phone and he asked me to call him..so i did. and we talked and laughed, u knw juz like a bgr..?yaeah i juz could imagine our past..i hope we can do that again. but i think it is not possible again..*___*

and hes now sick at home..resting i think..and i love the way he looks no matter what..yeah..to all of u out i love himm..u cant stop me frm that!!

2009-03-22T01:11:00.000-07:00

gosh ! aku mimpi psl mr 'f', mr 'h' , naia and mat rep!!! its a nightmare !!! naia suroh aku flirt or something kat dorg!!! ewwww.....btw...i loved my guitar class..last saturday no madrasa..kinda like it kalao tk banayk ceramah seyyy...

i topped up last friday..msged mat rep, mr 'f' ,'mr 'h' , riswan , naia , haha , nazmeen andd ainiie..... cumer 3 org jerr tk eply and it includes naia!!!! haha.. i hope dorg last long..unlike me...da nk masok 7 months da break!!! wat a waste..k lah im dead bz...school's 2mrw and have to awke up early...homework pun so the many....nk jamm agy....k love all of uu...

2009-03-17T23:09:00.001-07:00

my life sux..i wonder if i could forget hym or not...please help me to decide...anyone

2009-03-16T04:45:00.000-07:00

YAHOO...yesterday was indeed fun..the whole morning i message mr 'f'. He asked me out. Seriously u guys....actually i said yes, and then my pp8 went low. wtf!
Haha. eventually we didnt set a date...maybe i juz call it off. too tired..i want to spend my holiday sleeping in my heaven's bed...and watching the telly...hahas...i miss my friends at an-nur..i wanna change my religious class...the ustaz...DEAD BORED! wonder how my freinds at an-nur is doing? haha..and shanad missed my story telling abt my daily lifes since maybe last year....i drop by someday....Gosh im too ashamed. that's all for the night..im gonna watch the telly.....until tomorrow morning also i cant finish typing....i update soon(:

2009-03-14T07:31:00.000-07:00

Dun fall in love if you tink you would hurt someone,
dun get in love if you know you will leave that someone oneday,
dun be in love if you cant keep a simple promise.
dun act that you are in love if you hadn't have feelings in the first place.

its a shameyou had let me down,
even when there's hope within us.
dun deny that you still love me,
coz your eyes is every proof to me,
and for whatever Fuck that you had done,
i swear that you will get the same in future.

Get this!!!!!
i'l be the first to laugh and clap my hands in fron of your sorry face,
and i will take you back in and hope you had learnt your BLOODY FUCKING lesson.

deep in my heart...i always love you.
i never will stop thinking of you.
im sorry if what i said breaks your heart...
but i juz cant stand it anymore..

2009-03-09T22:14:00.000-07:00

dude i forgot to update my blog...

gosh...i tink im in love wif hym againn...WHY!!! although his not mine..he always live in my heart. how i wish he was mine once more, juz to light up my life a little more. life sux without hym..im not ready to let hym go yet..y does nobody understand me?

and i dun like mother tongue lesson..too many lecture..FOCUS!!that whatshe say always..hahahhaaa...

2009-03-04T04:43:00.000-08:00

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naia hereeeeee !

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ok byebye peepols.